I feel like I haven’t taken but a couple of decent photos in months. About 13 months actually. I’ve been in a total creative and photographic rut. Every time I even think of taking a photo it seems like some hellish chore that must be accomplished but that I don’t want to do. I end up walking to the cess pool of photography called “snapshot” and jump in. I sit at a bar with some friends and snap photos of them from where I sit.
This of course isn’t always bad, photos of your friends in bars from you seat can be amazing. The problem that I’ve started to realize exists with my photos like this is that I haven’t put any thought into them. I haven’t put any thought into a photo in a long time. I haven’t put much thought into the taking of the photo or into the post processing of the photo. I just toss it through Camera Raw in a mass production assembly line sort of way, tweaking contrast and exposure, maybe some sharpness and lens vignetting. I then open them in Photoshop and batch save with the proper dimensions for this site.
Honestly, thinking about this kinda sickens me. It really makes me realize how much of a rut I’ve been in. I haven’t used my tablet in over a year. You know what that means? I haven’t dodged or burned anything in a single photo for more than a year. What the hell?
The problem seems to be that I’m in this rut. I can’t find anything to photograph that I feel is original. I feel like I can’t turn around without having 10 people snapping photos of everything around them to a cacophony of praise from anyone within 5 feet. Call me a snob… maybe I am. Maybe I’m overly sensitive. I just get tired of everyone on the planet being a photographer when most of the shit sucks. Just head on over to DeviantArt or Etsy and you’ll see what I mean. There are some amazing photogs out there but there are endless ranks of crappy shots from people that think they’re Robert Frank.
So I guess where I’m going with this is that I’m so overwhelmed feeling as though I haven’t taken anything decent in so long… I can’t help but think, did I ever? Were they always crap? Am I that guy with the slr that sucks and thinks he’s good but really just churns out snapshots all the while touting how awesome he is on the internet? I’m kinda in a panic about it. Maybe I was always a talentless hack. Maybe I wasn’t. I don’t really know. All I know is that I’m going to try and make a more concerted effort to shoot again.
I went out tonight on a mission to take a single damn photograph that I like. I took two. Neither of them are here yet, but I’ll post them next. For now, be happy with this shot of some dude’s boots at Cafe Eclectic. I actually rather like this one. I took it about a week ago I think. Hopefully it’s not crap. I don’t even know anymore.